synchronicity

in this time of uncertaintly about my future, i couldn't help but notice the synchronicity that today's scripture reading was the same one that helped me so much in my confusion four years ago (four years!).  it was the story of jesus walking on water and petter getting out of the boat to walk towards him.

last time, i interpreted the story much more metaphorically - about my faith journey, leaving behind the familiar, venturing into a more universal spirituality, and being supported in that journey by god.  this time, it was more literal, about physical journeys and callings.
"if you call me, i will come" says peter.  and jesus does, so peter steps out of the boat and goes.
my thought process went like this:
1) i'm waiting to hear that call
but 2) i'm not listening very actively, paying attention, reading, reflecting, writing, things that will help me hear it
then again, 3) peter didn't just stand there looking at jesus and waiting for him to call him out onto the water, he initiated it by asking jesus to call him!
so 4) i need to be not just listening, but asking...