So it's October again. and this time I'm a senior. schneikies.
I guess that means I'm supposed to start figuring out what I'm going to do with my life--or at least for the next year or two. at least, that's the impression I get, since everyone asks me all the time.
but it's not that simple. there are so many factors to consider, not the least of which is myself. there are so many things I COULD do--the question is which one is right for me, for my passions, for the direction I think I might want to go with my life.
it's fall break, which is why I have time to sit at my computer and write this. at my computer on the couch in the living room of my HOUSE! I don't think I could stand it if I were living in a dorm this year. my spirit has a need to be free from the institutionalism of school. to feel more connected to the world. to not be completely swallowed up by "the bubble".
they're tearing apart the campus.
one day I walked to class at 8am, and when I walked back down the road an hour and a half later, the big flower bed along the side of the intersection was missing. removed. replaced by a big flat empty gravel patch. on Thursday, that class will be meeting in a modular on the other corner of campus, because they're going to tear down the education building. a large swath has been cut out of the woods of Norway Valley. they are putting a new road in. making way for the new state-of-the-art environmentally-friendly science center! but i find it more sad than exciting. disruptive. ugly. maybe when it's all done I'll be happier about it, but that won't be for at least 4 more years.
i want to make apple crisp. i want to watch Hazel and Skye and Birka grow up. i want to work with latin@ kids. i want to play the guitar. i want to eat gallo pinto and pupusas. i want to go to africa. i want to live in a big city. i want to live on a farm. i want to fall in love. i want to have children. i want to adopt children. i want to raise bilingual children. i want to go to mexico. and el salavador. again. and india. i want to like tomatoes. i want to make the world a better place. i want to be free. i want you to be free. anhelo. anhelo.
anhelo.
